A love song from God... :)

Today I was not feeling well.. and i felt so insecure.. it's about my future and it's about my life.. I have to make decision whether I have to stay here in Milan or go back to Indonesia.. I want to know God's will for me.. I want to stay if He tell me to stay, I will go home if he tell me to go home.. But now I don't know yet.. I'm still praying for that..

I feel like I'm at the intersection.. At the intersection and I can't decide where should i go, which part should I take...

And when I found this song again.. But in a different version.. Sidney Mohede cove this song and it makes me love this song more... (actually I gave this song for my boyfriend on our last 25th monthiversary on last May 23, 2012, I recorded my voice sang this song..)

I shared the link of Sidney Mohede version to my boyfriend and I started to listen to it and suddenly God spoke to me like this... "Actually this song is also represent my feeling to you dear... I have died everyday waiting for you, don't be afraid cause I have loved you for a thousand years and for a thousand more..."

I started to cry... and suddenly all the fears has gone away.. all my worries about my future, all of my insecurity.. I feel like God has shown His great love through this song.. and I just cried with big smiles.. every tear was because I'm so thankful that Jesus is my God and He loves me a lot.. He has his own way to speak to me and for me to walk with Him, with His love everyday is so precious and never be the same.. I always experienced many surprising, lovely things with Him through my journey with Him... O God I'm really amazed for what you have done today.. by Your way of telling me that You are with me...

Thank youuuu God for the song.. Yes Lord, I knew that You have died for me... I will not be afraid anymore because You have loved me for a thousand years and a thousand more... :)

Here's the song that I was talking about...

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

(A thousand years - Christina Perri)

Do Not Worry (Matthew 6: 25-34)

²⁵ “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? ²⁷ Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
²⁸ “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; ²⁹ and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. ³⁰ Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
³¹ “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. ³³ But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.