A love song from God... :)

Today I was not feeling well.. and i felt so insecure.. it's about my future and it's about my life.. I have to make decision whether I have to stay here in Milan or go back to Indonesia.. I want to know God's will for me.. I want to stay if He tell me to stay, I will go home if he tell me to go home.. But now I don't know yet.. I'm still praying for that..

I feel like I'm at the intersection.. At the intersection and I can't decide where should i go, which part should I take...

And when I found this song again.. But in a different version.. Sidney Mohede cove this song and it makes me love this song more... (actually I gave this song for my boyfriend on our last 25th monthiversary on last May 23, 2012, I recorded my voice sang this song..)

I shared the link of Sidney Mohede version to my boyfriend and I started to listen to it and suddenly God spoke to me like this... "Actually this song is also represent my feeling to you dear... I have died everyday waiting for you, don't be afraid cause I have loved you for a thousand years and for a thousand more..."

I started to cry... and suddenly all the fears has gone away.. all my worries about my future, all of my insecurity.. I feel like God has shown His great love through this song.. and I just cried with big smiles.. every tear was because I'm so thankful that Jesus is my God and He loves me a lot.. He has his own way to speak to me and for me to walk with Him, with His love everyday is so precious and never be the same.. I always experienced many surprising, lovely things with Him through my journey with Him... O God I'm really amazed for what you have done today.. by Your way of telling me that You are with me...

Thank youuuu God for the song.. Yes Lord, I knew that You have died for me... I will not be afraid anymore because You have loved me for a thousand years and a thousand more... :)

Here's the song that I was talking about...

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

(A thousand years - Christina Perri)

Do Not Worry (Matthew 6: 25-34)

²⁵ “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? ²⁷ Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
²⁸ “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; ²⁹ and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. ³⁰ Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
³¹ “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. ³³ But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Keukenhof!

Last easter break I went to Keukenhof, Netherlands with Winnie and Krista, Om Ricky and his daughter, Cleo.. It was a really nice day in that beautiful gardens... The thing I love the most is... all the tulip flowers there...  I had a lot of fun with Cleo.. She's really nice and love to play with me.. We took a thousand of pictures (literally... :P) because me and winnie we have almost the same habits to take pictures on every nice spot... hahaha.. Krista would always help us took our pics here and there.. thankyouuuu krista,,, xoxo

And last but not least I post some pics that I took at Keukenhof.. and also what I wore on that day... I was extremely full of colors and flowers on that day.. hehehe

me and Cleo.. :)

with krista, winnie and cleo..

Vorrei pensare tutte le cose meravigliose! :)

Ciaooooo!! Now I'm trying to escape from my assignments by writing this blog... Although I haven't print my works for tomorrow exams... but I think it's okay to refreshing for a while... hehehe

I posted new look on Lookbook today and it makes me think that I bought quite a few things in snakeskin prints recently.. huehehehehe

And when I was thinking about the title for this blog.. Suddenly I remember about what it's written in Philippians 4:8..

^"Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things"

this words is really alive, isn't it?

read it if it's in Indonesian...
 "Jadi akhirnya, saudara-saudara, semua yang benar, semua yang mulia, semua yang adil, semua yang suci, semua yang manis, semua yang sedap didengar, semua yang disebut kebajikan dan patut dipuji, pikirkanlah semuanya itu." (Filipi 4:8)

and it sounds even nicer when u read in Italian language.. 

 "Quanto al rimanente, fratelli, tutte le cose che sono veraci, tutte le cose che sono oneste, tutte le cose che sono giuste, tutte le cose che sono pure, tutte le cose che sono amabili, tutte le cose che sono di buona fama, se vi è qualche virtú e se vi è qualche lode, pensate a queste cose." (Filippesi 4:8)

This verse really give me a new strength and mindset!
I hope it works for all of you too!

and by the way this is my look in Lookbook...

I think I'll go back to work! To finish all my works for the exams!! Ciao ciao!!

Benvenuti Primavera! :))

Hello Spring! I love the weather in Milan recently.. Last night I only slept for 2 hours! Could you imagine how sleepy I am now..
I went to bed sooooooooo lateeeeee during this last two weeks... It was because of my exam of Product Development Research and coordination strategies.. I had to make a purposal for the brand for the next Fall/winter 2012-2013 collection. I had to make moodboard, color chart, technical analysis charts, accessories chart, styling board, and also all the product development things (such as lists of items, list for materials and price, lists per sub themes, threads).. that's only for 2 subjects of course... I still have 4 more other exam.. and could u imagine how many works that i have to finish?

But my God is so good! The presentation for the 2 big project is done this morning.. finally! and all of my hard works, all my suffering it was worth it! my exam presentation today went more than well! Thanks to my God, Jesus.. He gave me the best result... The teachers, Lara and Sorci.. they said that my job is really well done and very precise, and they said that they couldn't take notes (negative notes/notes to improve for me) because it's all good.. whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... i'm so relieved!! Jesus You are amazing! It wasn't because of me or my hard work.. but it because of You! You give me strength so I could give the best for You! There's nothing that I can do if I depend on myself..

After the exam, me and my friends went to Roberto Cavalli fashion show.. I was so tired because I carried my laptops to the show.. and too bad that we couldn't enter because we didn't get the invitations.. but we were still enjoyed because we could took many pictures of many fashionable people there.. The thing that I like the most of the Milan Fashion Week is seen everyone dressed up so well during the fashion week. I love to analyze people and what they wear.. and took pictures also. because it will be great for me to do the trend prediction.. it's like cool hunter job.. lol :P
here are some pics that I took in front of Cavalli's show..

i dunno who she is but she looks like flapper girl from the twenties era.. If I have this pic before i submit my historical fashion final exam, sure I will put this pic for my assignment.. :P

Anna Dello Russo!

Me and my friends!

And then after that, me and my housemates (winnie and krista) went to Shiokolat near Cadorna metro station. Many of my friends said that they sell good gelato there. This was my first time to try their gelato and i ordered Pistacchio and Cioccolato Rhum.. it was delicious! but for me, so far the best gelato is at Piazza Lodi. I loooooovveeee the pistacchio gelato there!

We went home after grabbed some gelato.. before we got inside our house, we did some photoshoot xP Krista took it and I really love the result! it was really nice! we should do it again! hehehe.. and I poested in on Lookbook also!

Kristaaaa thanks for the photos! love it! :)

//i love my colorful necklace.. it could be match with every clothes that i have! lol// my first time wore venetian bracelets, love it!

This is my new favorite shoes! Please don't mind if you see many pic of me with those shoes.. :P

I think now i really need to sleep.. tomorrow until next week i have day offs because my next exam will be continue on next week.. I still have lots of assignments to do.. but at least the biggest part is done! Thank God!

Upsidedown Mood!

My look below is describe my mood this week! Sottosopra umore!!! yesssss! upsidedown! sometimes can be bright as yellow, so-so as gray, or even can turn black mood!

But overall I love this week! I always amazed about how God makes everything going well, every worst situation has change...  I feel that His favor never left me behind... His favor makes me strong, stand still and leading me to be a better person... And today's lesson at class about trend makes me see the trend in different point of view... I don't know but it makes me more conscious about God and His will in my life.. I can't imagine how my world would be if I don't believe in Him... Today I feel so gracious... Thank God for making me more and more love You each day!! :)

All for You, all from You!!

Yesterday night was an unforgettable moment with God... I just realized that everything that he Has done for me are sooo awesome and great... I was sitting in front of my Macbook.. browsing on the internet... and listened to iTunes.. And then the music "Be glorified" by True Worshippers played... I started to cry and realized how great our God is... Yesterday was the first time I felt that deep, calm God's presence since I've been living in Milan...

Oh and the picture below was my look on last Saturday when I was shopping with Krista and Auntie Yani... I wore just simple scallop polkadot top and red ankle length pants.. Adorned with black pearl necklace and red leather DKNY watch... And my pose was looked to someone above me.. a lovingkind person with an everlasting love.. Yes He is.. my Jesus, my saviour, my King, my redeemer, my God, my life...

Love you God! :)

it's too perfect to be true..

Tak ada kata yang sanggup melukiskan
Besarnya cinta yang Kau beri
Tak ada karya yang mampu mengukirkan indahnya cinta yang kurasa
Tak ingin ku jauh dariMu

Terlalu sempurna sgala pengorbananMu
DarahMu tercurah selamatkaku
Terlalu sempurna segala perbuatanMu
Masa depan penuh harapan telah Kau sediakan bagiku

("Terlalu Sempurna" by Patmos)


I've been singing the song above over and over again since last week. I love it very much! It's lyrics strengthen me and makes me realized that His love is endless and unconditional..

Well actually I'm really sad this evening.. i'm really dissapointed.. I can't imagine why they did that to me.. and not only me, they also did that to the people that i love.. I love them too... Much more than any other.. but why they always made me sad everytime I ask them for a favor, or everytime I want something..  why? why, why and why?? I'm asking those question in my mind...

But, I don't wanna tell too much about them.. Complaining can't solve it... Beside that, I can't do anything to change them... Only God can change people.. But i don't ask God to change them, I want God to change me first... change my point of view, change my perception about them... Maybe I'm wrong.. maybe there's a thing that I don't know why they always do that...

And for that problems, God gave me the solutions.. 1. change my focus of prayer (change me first O God), 2. my God is rich! He is actually my real provider, not them! so He will provide everything!! He has everything that I need... God will give what I need... 3. Rejoice in the Lord! this is the antidote of every problems... When you start to rejoice in the Lord and think about His love more than your problem.. you;ll have peace and joy!! and also you'll have wisdom from above to solve every problem.. 4. Be silent and let God do His part.. just surrender and let His will be done...

Thank God for everything... I'm so relieved and happy now... and for you who read this.. whatever your problem is.. i don't know how big, how hard, how hurt it is... Just lay it upon God's feet... He knows what the best for you and He will never ever late to answer your prayer.... :)